I have finally gotten back into a different mindset. Things are still hairy around here - hubby is still looking for something, which is a HUGE factor in all things. It's actually the biggest. It's scary and we are nervous and you can tell that we are sometimes terrified. There are times when the two of us are talking that a silence sneaks into the conversation and you can see that we are both letting our minds wander to the worst case scenario.
However, one of us snaps the other out of it, we sit up straight, take a deep breath, and pray that this too shall pass. For now, it's day by day and that's about all anyone can do, right? Also, fighting like hell and not letting self-pity swallow us up doesn't hurt either! I can't let this beat me into gaining what little weight I actually lost back and then some, therefore I decided to start clawing myself out of the muck. Today I have one full week of eating on target and even better, tonight I got on the treadmill in what would appear to be a VERY long time.
So, here we go - I'm not going down without a fight!!!
